This is me

Where to start, I guess about 8 years ago will work. That was about the time that I moved to Northwest Arkansas from a very small town in South Arkansas. Back then I was quiet and shy and didnt have much of a social life much less even an idea of how to get beyond my shyness to go out and meet people. Not to mention I was dating this guy that I now know is a huge ass hole. So being shy and a bit of an introvert I sat at home by the phone waiting for a call. So that continued for a few years and then I started a new job. With this new job came new friends and more time out of the house. I was forced out of my shell by my new job and my new friends. I became more happy and more confident than I have ever been before. I became so confident that I started to realize that I could do so much better so after 8 years I ended the very bad relationship that should have ended long before that. No matter how bad it was it was one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do and if it were not for my friends I dont think I would have ever gotten thru it!

So after I got past the pain I decided that it was time to get back out there and try to start dating. Well easier said than done right, I had no idea where to begin. When it came to men I was still shy and had no clue what to do. Because of this I put all of my focus into work and spent most of my free time out with my friends. Then after almost 2 years at my job I got the promotion that I have been working so hard for. With this promotion came a move that I was not sure I was ready for.

So I was off to STL, a place I have never been and knew not one person. I was scared shitless and didnt want to leave my comfort zone. I was faced with leaving my life here my friends and family. I didnt know if I was going to be able to handle it but at this point I didnt have much of a choice. Here is how it went down I got the call that I was promoted on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving and by Sunday I was in STL looking for an apartment. All I took with me was my clothes and my parents were gonna bring everything else later after my apartment was ready.

So here I am in STL with nothing but a bag of clothes staying in a guest suite at my apartment complex waiting for mine to be ready and working 12 to 14 hours a day. Well in sticking to what I know I made friends with the people that I spent the most time with the people that I worked with. So as time moved on and before I knew it summer was here and I had a large group of friends. I had made a great life for myself and was having a blast. I had moved out of my apartment and into a house with my friend Kevin and his cousin. This was one of the best decisions that I could have ever made. Not only was it cheaper but I made some of the best friends that I have ever had in my life. Jonathan (Kevin's cousin) and I immediately hit it off and were instant friends. The whole neighborhood was like a block party everyone was in the same age group and we all got along for the most part. I was introduced to Jessica and Derek who live around the corner and that was it the 5 of us were together all the time! Jessica and I well there are really no words to describe we are alot alike but then again we balance each other out at the same time. It was not til about this time that I really started dating.

Well it was not too promising I dated some real jerks and had some interesting experiences to say the least. Then it came down to the fact that some things in my life really needed to change so after a lot of thought I made the decision to move back to Northwest Arkansas. This was not a decision that I wanted to make but I had a lot of things that I needed to get away from. My friends on the other hand I will miss terribly!

Well that kinda brings us up to the present I am living back here and I cant even tell you how different my life is here or should I say lack there of. I still have some friends here but most of them are married with kids and dont go out like I am used to. And of corse I am still looking for Mr Right. So keep an eye out I will be keeping you up to date on my search I am sure it will prove to be interesting!